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I’m in His hands…. How difficult it is to listen to this, let alone sing it. Yet this song compels me to lay myself prostrate before God’s mighty self, the great I AM and submit myself totally to Him.
Whatever the future holds…. this is tomorrow, next week, and next month….next year… ten years from now. Whenever. I know He holds the future – He is so awesomely not bound by time or space…and I can count on Him pulling it all together for me. Is that not so cool!?
And I need to have control sometimes!
Yes, I have a problem with control. I know it comes from growing up in a family affected by alcoholism. Never being able to predict what is going to happen. Never knowing for sure where your parent is because you know they’re late and they’re not home yet… and it’s dark…and they might not come home….and when they do will they be happy? angry?... will your parents fight again?... and on and on… ad infinitum… sigh.
But that was a long time ago, you might say. Yes, but its shadow still falls on my spirit every once in a while and sets me off. Then I’m back on the faith journey all over again. Every day, I have to come before God and give Him control. If I don’t I’ll take over myself and… well, that has disastrous consequences. Oh yes, I’ll start to fret as if that will fix it, then I won’t be able to sleep and then I’ll be tired and tense all the time. And before you know it I’ll wake up really early in the morning with my chest bursting. I’ll feel like I just want to run away from everything…
Like a dunce, it’ll take me a few days to remember that God is the one in control and I don’t have to be. You’d think since I’ve been at this for so long I’d have this down pat, eh? Especially since I’m in the business of preaching to others about it! But no… my humanness can’t help but break through every once in a while…and there you have it.
So, if you fret too, don’t worry, you’re not alone. If you have trouble giving over control of your day, your family, your life to God, you’re not alone there either. If you can’t keep hold of the peace the passes all understanding followers of Jesus are always talking about…you’re not alone. I’ll wager that there are a lot of us like this.
Do you know what the good news is about this? God knows already. AND… He loves us anyway. He is patient for He knows our weaknesses. I’m reminded of Peter and how he had enough faith to get himself out and walking on the water, but not enough to keep him there. But Jesus reached his hands out to him and He reaches out to us too. And if He could use Peter to establish His church, then He can use me too.
Are you sinking…quick! Reach out and take His hand… He’s got it all under control.